Dream Slide

I had a chance to participate in a Dream Analysis this week.  The author of the surprise journal, Betsy Pearson also helps analyze dreams.  When asked to think of a dream, all I could think of was my "Black Hole'' dream.  I laugh now, as I told my friend Hope that the only one I could think of was the "Same one everyone has.... you know the one where you fall into a black hole."  Hope looked at me and said... no, no I don't know that one.  I truly thought that the black hole dream was everyone's dream.  I have had it for as long as I can remember.  It is usually related to a time when I have WAY too much to do, and I fall asleep and everything I'm trying to do can't get done in my dream.... so I'm frantically doing whatever, trying to get my to-do list done and then I fall into a black hole.  So Betsy took me through her dream analysis. I learned my black hole is not scary... it is soft, warm and comforting.  It kind of is an escape.  And then I realized that I have not had that dream since I got sick.  Before I got sick, I was busy.  But cancer gave me an “out” of a lot of busy.

After working with Betsy, I realized that cancer is my black hole.... it gave me an easy escape from being busy as I could say, “sorry ____committee I'm fighting cancer so I can't help you with that project.”  So I emptied my calendar and I fought cancer.  Now that I'm well, many of the committees have asked if I want to come back, but it just is not the right time.

In the end was cancer warm, soft and comforting? Yes!  Because it connected me back to my friends and not committees.  It connected me closer to my family and I don't need a black hole to escape.  It was my slide back to where I truly wanted to live.  And I don't need it anymore so it does not need to come back.... Life lesson learned! 

To learn more about Betsy, check out her website here.