Never Enough Time

I am the queen of excuses. I have agenda’s and a packed calendar. Most days, my personal goals are buried in dirty laundry and dishes. I am never caught up. Today I was listening to the recording from the immersion class I missed yesterday and my life coach Leah said, “You either make time or you don’t.” I had to rewind that one. “You either make time, or you don’t.”

All of my life, I have done the work. I meet the deadlines. I crush goals… (when they are for work or they are responding to a crisis) The problem is, I have never put what I wanted to do on the agenda because I was not getting paid, and it was not a life or death crisis. In my mind, I had too much to do, I was working to make the world a better place, people were counting on me. This morning I promised myself I was going to write a blog entry right away. I even put “Write” on the calendar at 9am. Then I listened to Leah’s coaching…. and when she said, you either make the time, or you don’t. I had to sit on that for a while…. actually I chewed on it all day. I had a lot “To Do” today. I am working crazy hours as my job adjusts to the COVID crisis. At work, before COVID, we were planning a fundraiser tomorrow. Now it will be a virtual event…. tomorrow. (And I’m the IT department and the fundraising committee). My boys work on their own all week to get their homeschooling done, but I promised my youngest that I would help him with Geography today. The laundry was overflowing, the dishes were out of control and my brain was swirling because I never have enough time. I planned to write from 9 am-10 am and then go to check off the next thing on my list.

You either make the time - or you don’t. One thing was for sure. 9 am was not the time to write. My son was ready to do Geography - so we did. Then it was time to do dishes. As I was digging in, my oldest asked if we could go for a drive. When a teenager, asks his mom for one on one time (aka drive) mom says yes! I absolutely want to make time for that. We went for a drive, the dishes got done, the laundry got flipped and I even enjoyed a walk with my husband.

You either make the time - or you don’t. I’m ready for bed. It is later than I wanted to write this blog entry, but my heart is full of the wonderful things I enjoyed today, because I made the time!